Below are the 4 most recent journal entries recorded in mostlyjusttears' LiveJournal:

Friday, January 13th, 2006
8:48 pm	I'm deleting my myspace so I'm posting all my bull shit I like here on the side of the title I'll put who its about... dream (no one) dream of me, I'll dream of you. I can't wait to see your face flooding my being, blocking all other thoughts.. I'll dream of far off wonderlands and ever close heavens.. my thought will be consumed with your presence... don't leave me dreamless.. I'm waiting to see you in the darkness of my thoughts... Im waiting to feel you in the cold of the night... don't leave me dreamless This is love! *ramdom thoughts* .... hey I miss him (Gene) Every word you ever spoke to me resounds endlessly Every touch we shared burns my skin relentlessly you scent is infectous.... this love is a disease.... My body longs to feel you My arms they need to hold you all throughout the night this Love is slowly killing me but I wouldn't have it any other way... this pain keeps you closer... The burn keeps me alive... They never told us it would be like this.... (gene) what will it take to erase your face from the depths of my mind? what must I do to make this agony subside? if I cross the universe to find you your very own star would you finally see how deeply my love runs if I cut these vein and paint your wall deep red with my own blood? would you please tell me what I must do to get through this wall of silence? what can i do to so you would once again kiss my lips so I feel alive again? these memories are the breath that keeps me going... high hopes in this that never happen keep these wounds wide open... I miss your kiss, your touch, the sound of your voice, the ink on you skin and everything you are within.... You are the rage, the pasion that keeps me captive I think I should end this now with this knife in hand and its blade to your neck then you know what I'll do next this blade will end it for me just as it will for you... this will be a beautiful ending the one we always knew would come... I painted this picture in red ink to get your atteniton since I couldn't get your heart.... Let The Silence Speak (bobby) You said you would answer You said you’d be there You said that this was for sure But then again you said to not believe a word you said This silence says it all I was never any of your concern My ignorance was a choice So I choose to learn This means I wish you the best I wish that every time your phone ring you wish it’s me And I hope that the ringing penetrates your dreams And I hope your new endeavors prosper And when everything is just so perfect you’ll realize you miss me Yeah you’ll be missing me! This isn’t me This isn’t me I’m just saying what was left unsaid I’m simply speaking the silence… Current Music: The cure- Facination street (Comment on this)
Friday, September 2nd, 2005
2:49 am	They never told us it would be like this.... what will it take to erase your face from the depths of my mind? what must I do to make this agony subside? if I cross the universe to find you your very own star would you finally see how deeply my love runs if I cut these vein and paint your wall deep red with my own blood? would you please tell me what I must do to get through this wall of silence? what can i do to so you would once again kiss my lips so I feel alive again? these memories are the breath that keeps me going... high hopes in this that never happen keep these wounds wide open... I miss your kiss, your touch, the sound of your voice, the ink on you skin and everything you are within.... You are the rage, the pasion that keeps me captive I think I should end this now with this knife in hand and its blade to your neck then you know what I'll do next this blade will end it for me just as it will for you... this will be a beautiful ending the one we always knew would come... I painted this picture in red ink to get your atteniton since I couldn't get your heart.... (Comment on this)
2:47 am	black ocean comfort Tonight I lost myself in the deep black ocean of your eyes My words were hushed and my body was left bound and tied The fear Has consumed me and tonight I fall... fearing you won't catch me keeps me holding on... I'm grasping nothing worth saving so I'll let go! I fall into the darkness and release all of my fears... I fall into this ocean and drown myself in tears... The black pools are my comfort The black tide is my demise... (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 13th, 2005
9:03 pm	this is merely a test of the emergency broadcast system this journal was created with the sole purpose of me typing all the shit I write on napkins and paper scraps in here... no matter how good or bad or eh it may be... I figured I should write all the shit somewhere where I wouldn't lose it.. so with that said... heres a few of those collections of words that hit paper and now are hitting your screen! "perfection" I envisioned me being everything you could ever want or need... then maybe you would want or need me... I saw myself being everything I'm not.. Just to be close to you... Just for one touch.. one kiss... one sincere smile... I saw me so perfect.. oh so utterly perfect... but still not perfect enough for you... (no title) These are the times I wish you were more like me and I was more like you... when this silence is saying everything... when youre absence is killing me this is when youre apathy would be useful and my openess is my biggest weakness.. these aren't really finished but yeah... Current Mood: blah Current Music: Rico-Ruby (Comment on this)